AnniePokely
10-27-2008, 08:44 PM
Horrible time here at my house. My mom slept the entire day saturday (minus about 45 mins on and off watching the game) and then again on sunday. Sunday night i woke her to tell her she HAD to wake up and eat, and take meds that we were behind on. The only reason i let her sleep is b/c she kept telling me that she just didn't "feel right."
Last night after i wake her up, with her on NO medication, she starts telling Bill's daughter Holly and I that's she's fixing to go. She says it over and over, and closes her eyes. I kept asking her "momma, what do you mean you're fixing to go?" And she started crying and telling me she was going, and she was so tired of all of this. I started FREAKING out bawling, and holly ran to call Bill. I called the RN to get out here as fast as possible. I asked her "Momma, do you want me to do cpr on you if anything happens, and she said no. I wanted to make sure she didn't want to revoke the DNR.
Bill showed up about ten minutes later, and the RN came running. Her BP was a little low, and her pulse o2 was good. Nobody knew what was going on.
Bill managed to get her calmed down, and i went out in the front yard b/c i was flipping out.
The RN told us that ESRD (End Stage Renal Disease) patients on dialysis get like that towards the end. I asked her if mom was getting worse, and she said yes.
She calmed down and went to sleep when Bill started rubbing her arms, neck and back.
This morning after taking her to dialysis, and seeing she lost 5 more pounds from friday until today, plus had a blood pressure of 71/22 i did the hardest thing i've yet to do in my life thus far. I went to the funeral home and made all the arrangements for the woman who gave birth to me, and then followed it up with a visit to the monument company where i picked out a headstone, and ordered it to be put in place. I just wanted it all done so i didn't have to deal with it all when the time comes. I'm not sure i'll be able to take all that on when something happens.
It's all done. Today was the most horrible day of my life next to the day my Nana died.
At least when i got home, Carmen (Annie's breeder) called and said she was bringing Annie over. Tammy (the RN) called her (Tammy is her boss) and told her "you need to get that dog there."
Annie arrived about 5:45 this evening, and she's the most adorable thing i've ever layed eyes on. I guess i was expecting something bigger, even thought i knew she was one pound. She is SO small it's scary.
Her and mom instantly bonded, and when i went to put mom to bed a little while ago, i took Annie in there and mom kissed her and told her "I love you so much." Awwwwww. It was a precious moment.
Annie's asleep in her carrier inside the playpen, and mom in the bed.
I'll take some pictures of mom and Annie tomorrow.
Thanks for listening.
Last night after i wake her up, with her on NO medication, she starts telling Bill's daughter Holly and I that's she's fixing to go. She says it over and over, and closes her eyes. I kept asking her "momma, what do you mean you're fixing to go?" And she started crying and telling me she was going, and she was so tired of all of this. I started FREAKING out bawling, and holly ran to call Bill. I called the RN to get out here as fast as possible. I asked her "Momma, do you want me to do cpr on you if anything happens, and she said no. I wanted to make sure she didn't want to revoke the DNR.
Bill showed up about ten minutes later, and the RN came running. Her BP was a little low, and her pulse o2 was good. Nobody knew what was going on.
Bill managed to get her calmed down, and i went out in the front yard b/c i was flipping out.
The RN told us that ESRD (End Stage Renal Disease) patients on dialysis get like that towards the end. I asked her if mom was getting worse, and she said yes.
She calmed down and went to sleep when Bill started rubbing her arms, neck and back.
This morning after taking her to dialysis, and seeing she lost 5 more pounds from friday until today, plus had a blood pressure of 71/22 i did the hardest thing i've yet to do in my life thus far. I went to the funeral home and made all the arrangements for the woman who gave birth to me, and then followed it up with a visit to the monument company where i picked out a headstone, and ordered it to be put in place. I just wanted it all done so i didn't have to deal with it all when the time comes. I'm not sure i'll be able to take all that on when something happens.
It's all done. Today was the most horrible day of my life next to the day my Nana died.
At least when i got home, Carmen (Annie's breeder) called and said she was bringing Annie over. Tammy (the RN) called her (Tammy is her boss) and told her "you need to get that dog there."
Annie arrived about 5:45 this evening, and she's the most adorable thing i've ever layed eyes on. I guess i was expecting something bigger, even thought i knew she was one pound. She is SO small it's scary.
Her and mom instantly bonded, and when i went to put mom to bed a little while ago, i took Annie in there and mom kissed her and told her "I love you so much." Awwwwww. It was a precious moment.
Annie's asleep in her carrier inside the playpen, and mom in the bed.
I'll take some pictures of mom and Annie tomorrow.
Thanks for listening.